I missed Easter – Part 1

I awoke in a sweat around midnight on Saturday. I sat up and the room was spinning viciously. I couldn’t keep my eyes open. It was like being on a Tilt-a-Whirl that wouldn’t quit. I tried again to open my eyes. I tried to force them to focus on the window across the room. I couldn’t do it. I started to feel nauseous. I called for my husband.

I had been experiencing short dizzy spells all week but nothing quite like this. We decided that I should go to the ER. I was able to hold off vomiting until we arrived at the hospital but then out it came all over the parking lot.

I staggered into the ER with help from my husband and daughter. I must have looked bad because they took me in and immediately got me a bed.

We spent most of the early morning hours there. I was given numerous medications, an EKG, and a CAT Scan. The dizziness started to clear up. It had lasted almost three hours. They determined that I had a severe case of vertigo and it was most likely caused by a virus in my inner ear.

It is now Wednesday and I am some better. The medications from the ER made me sleep all day Sunday and most of the day Monday. I am still experiencing dizziness from time to time. I made an appointment, as recommended by the ER doctor, with a specialist but he can’t see me until May.

I feel defenseless. I feel out of control because I have no warning when these spells will strike and I can’t do anything to stop them. I am afraid – afraid I will fall, afraid to drive a car, afraid to go down a set of stairs ….

I had to drive to work today. On the hour drive to work, I sang praise songs and prayed. I asked God to keep me safe. I arrived at work and breathed a big sigh of relief.

I am trusting God moment by moment to get me through right now. I trust that He knows what is best for me. I trust that He will take care of me. I know that all things work together for good for those who love God. I am waiting on the Lord for strength and I trust Him to work all things out.

I am frustrated that I missed Easter. Easter is my favorite Christian holiday. It is because of Easter that I am saved and look forward to heaven. I’ll comment more on that tomorrow …

 

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.  He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.  Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;  but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40:28-31