Sometimes our greatest strengths are also our greatest weaknesses. One of my greatest personal strengths is that I am a strong independent woman. One of my greatest spiritual weaknesses is that I am a strong independent woman.
I have gifts and talents in the area of leadership. I have a graduate degree in educational leadership. I have been a school administrator for more years than I care to admit.
And yet, sometimes that independence can have a negative effect on my Christian life.
Here’s an example. I was praying through a list of requests the other day and I really felt like God was prompting me to pray for myself. I wondered why. The people I am praying for really need my prayers right now. They are not doing well and they need a touch from the Lord. Yet God kept prompting me the pray for myself. I thought I am doing fine and then it hit me….
I’ve been doing some study on the topic of prayer in preparation to teach a Sunday School lesson. I read verses like pray without ceasing. I know I need to pray. After all, prayerlessness is a sin. It’s like telling God that you don’t need him. You can do it on your own. You are self-sufficient instead of God-dependent.
This is exactly what God was trying to tell me when I was praying. I need to pray for others but I also need to pray for myself. It is an act of submission and surrender to God when we pray for ourselves. Placing everything I am doing and needing at His feet and asking Him to walk through it with me. Depending on Him to get me through and not on myself.
I need God every minute of every day and yet I don’t always acknowledge His presence in my life. This is something I can pray for, not only for myself but for others.
What about you? Do you truly rely on the Lord for everything or are you too self-sufficient? Do you trust Him moment by moment or just run to Him when you are in a crisis?