One of the ladies I work with made a comment on Friday that has stuck with me. She asked how I could keep smiling and have such a good attitude and have my foot in a cast and have to use wheelchair.
I have been purposely trying to have a good attitude. I have been trying to practice Philippians 4:4 which says “Rejoice in the Lord always.” I have also given some thought to Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
Yes somewhere down inside I am really frustrated. When I am home in the evening, it drives me crazy. I know I want my foot to get better. I know that this gives me a good chance. I also know that hobbling around on crutches and using a wheelchair are a big pain. I can’t do what I want to do. I am dependent on others. That isn’t the way I like to live.
So am I a liar? I give the appearance at work that all is well. I try to have a good attitude. I try to paste on the smile and stay positive. Yet that isn’t the way I really feel.
How do I resolve this conflict?
Have you ever felt like this?