Life sometimes throws you a curve ball. You are expecting a fast ball down the middle, you think you know what is going to happen next and then all of a sudden a big sweeping curve comes and it knocks you totally off your feet. That's about how I feel today.
I fell down a set of steps (at work) in July 2006 and injured my wrist. It took months of doctor appointments and referrals and insurance stuff to finally end up at a hand specialist. I had multiple X-rays and then finally an MRI which revealed a torn ligament and torn cartilage in my left wrist. I had surgery in December of 2006. I recovered and faithfully went to rehab through May of 2007. Then I started rehab on my own and just had some final check-ups at the doctor's office. Fall of 2007 it was still bothering me. December 2007 I got a cortisone shot for the pain. Now, March 4, 2008, I got my second cortisone shot and the news that I need a second surgery. That was my curve ball. I was not expecting to do this again. However, an arthritic spur had formed since the first surgery and it was now interfering with some of the tendons. All I know is it hurts if I use it too long at one time. Surgery is scheduled for March 31.
How we handle the curve balls in life tells a lot about who we are. I am frustrated but not to the point of despair. I am upset, no one wants surgery, but I know God knows what is best. I am grateful for God's grace and mercy. I see these things in my life every day and I often wonder, "Why me?" So, today I am asking that question as I am frustrated. One of the things I have learned is that it is OK to let God know exactly how you feel. He really already knows it anyway. I'm just being honest with Him. I know that He wants me to cry out to Him. He wants to know what I am feeling. He wants me to trust Him. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
I know that He has promised to never leave me or forsake me (Hebrews 13:5) God doesn't promise an easy life for the believer but he has promised to go through it with us. I am in the palm of His hand and he will take care of me and all my “curve balls.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.”
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